So tonight is not a good night to write poetry. Oh dear heavens Megan, don't write poetry. You're doing so well at not thinking. Don't think now. I know you must write your essay, and that separating technical and creative writing is difficult. Try, though. Please try.
Turn off those emotions, just like he accused you of a few years ago, when you were fighting. Just like a faucet. You never did, but now you can.